Ten months ago my most appropriate crony pennyless friends with me… everybody incited agaisnt me since she did, i became vexed as good as dependant upon booze as good as chocolate… she was not my crony since she favourite my beloved though we didn’t similar to that.. (I meant she longed for me to bail out him so she could have him) Ok so we done friends again, (I know what we guys have been starting to say, i do not need friends similar to that) good a actuality of a make a difference is if we were in my boots i am certain we would cite to have her as a crony rsther than afterwards an enemy.
Well right away we have been friends as good as all is behind to normal (I have a brand new beloved now, which i am not introducing them to or anything) as good as all is greatish…. afterwards there is my prior ex ex. this is my beloved prior to a alternative a single which i referred to during a beginning, as good as he is regularly watchful upon corners as good as streets as good as when he see’s me he beats me up (Don’t contend discuss it someone we will be wasting your time i’m NOT revelation ANYONE)
and afterwards a fury as good as annoy in side of me i take it out upon my friends verbally… as good as i am off a ethanol though i am still a bit of a chocoholic as good as i risk apropos diabetic during this rate.
i only need a little help.. does any one know what i can do to assistance myself? i am not looking assistance i only wish self-help somehow. thanks,
by a approach i am 15

You seem to have two choices:
1. Accept the beatings.
2. Kick the crap out of him.
Look, nobody has the right to assault another person for ANY reason. The next time he comes towards you, kick him low repeatedly until he vomits all over himself. He will learn.
Personally, I’d tell your father if I were you. Daddy’s little girl getting beaten up by some clown, watch daddy kick some ass.
As for your rage and anger, that stems from a feeling of impotence. A feeling that your life is beyond your control. Sadly, the opposite is true.
YOU have the power to change anything and everything in your life.
When you said you would rather have that person as a friend than an enemy, you are giving that person power over you. It sounds like that person should be a "non-entity" in your life.
Listen, you’re only 15 years old. This is a horrible time in anyone’s life, but we ALL went through it and have similar stories. Believe me.
Self-help: Don’t let the people get to you. There’s an old saying: "Have no friends not equal to yourself." In a nutshell: Get out, find new friends. Change your life for the better instead of being a prisoner of your own fears.
All the best!
i think you need sex. honestly. lol try it.
The only self-help options in a case like this is to break off contact with these abusive friends and surround yourself with better people.
You SHOULD tell someone about your ex beating you up though. Unless you want to learn martial arts and beat him off yourself, you need to be protected from him. FYI, you can’t ask for help and then limit the kinds of suggestions we can give you just because you don’t want to hear it. If you knew people would say it, you must know that it’s the right thing to do. You can’t let someone hurt you just because you’re too proud, or afraid, or whatever the reason is you don’t want to tell. You ask faceless people online for help, but we can’t physically defend you. You need to talk to someone who can, when it comes to the ex beating you up problem.
As for the friends, you said you don’t want to be her enemy… is that because she’ll retaliate in some way if you stop being her friend? As long as she’s not threatening you I think you should just stop hanging around with her, leave it at that. But if you really don’t want her to know you’re not her friend anymore, you can find other, better friends and still hang around with the other one, just don’t put your trust in her or talk to her about anything important…
As far as things you can do alone, that’s about it. I still think you should talk to someone else about it though.